Homesickness is a Biscuit -.-

Augh, I'm sick of this place >.<

There's only so much I can take of Vijayawada before I need to go off on vacation to clear my head and breathe again. I REALLY can't imagine having to live here for FIVE freaking years!

I'm gonna run away one of these days...I swear it >.<.

It's not that I don't like it here...I mean, I DO...But it just gets so suffocating after some time :/

And I miss my Sister and my parents. I wish they didn't live so far away, all the way in another country across the ocean.

I know I'm 18 and I'm supposed to be able to cope with living on my own now. But there are times when I hear someone say exactly something my sister would in a certain situation...or smell something my mom cooks...or hear a really Really REEEEALLY lame joke which would remind me of my dad...And it just hits me so hard I wanna sit down, bury my head in my knees and cry.

I miss them that much.

Iff only they lived in the same country atleast. I mean, I wish they'd just hurry up and move to India already so I'd have somewhere to go for the short hols we get. It's hard seeing some of my roomies leaving for home time and time again while I'm left in hostel.

:/ This sucks.

Maya

Song: The Reason-Hoobastank

This is my new favourite song. EVERYTHING about it is awesome :D

(I'm STARVING >.<...I shouldn't have skipped lunch :/)

Peace

Maya ^^

Things are working out ^^

I'm in class, bunking LUNCH (of all periods -.-) under the pretext of trying to get some work done.

And here I am, BLOGGING.
*sigh*
Anyway, I DID promise I would try and blog regularly right? (several times, if I remember right :/)
So here I am.
I think views on my page have gone down quite a bit. I've not updated for a while now. 'Cos there's just no bloody time -.-. I'm losing weight and sleep. I don't mind the former so much, but the sleep part? Yeeeah, I'm not too happy about that.
So anyway, We JUST had our Freshers Party and it wasn't too bad :). Had a lotta fun back in hostel too.

Me and Varsha

Back in hostel ^^

At The Freshers

Yeah, These are my girls and I love Love LOVE them :* :* :*.
(I'm the one in green btw :P)

It was awesome fun. Because I was with THEM.

Then I've done some sketching, random stuff. I'll be helping paint the walls of my college so if anyone out there has any interesting ideas for wall paintings, PLEASE let me know in your comments :).

This is one of my most recent sketches (and I'm VERY proud of it :P ^^")

Archers <3

:D Lemme know what you people think :).

And yes, I AM begging for comments. Or maybe even a little tick in those opinion boxes below each post. It would mean a lot to me :).

Okay, I gtg now. Class starting soon, and I REALLY gotta get started on drafting my sheet.

Peace!

Maya

Song on my mind: Last of me-Cher. In-CREDIBLE vocals :).It's from Burlesque, my new favourite movie :P

Well....
Long time no anything, huh? Heh heh... ^^"
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OKAY, OKAY..... I'M SORRY.
I KNOW I KEEP vowing to post more often and whatnot, but it's not like I'm wasting away in free time here. Architecture is one tough course, i'll tell you that -.-.
At the moment, I'm all Zombie-ish cos I just pulled an all-nighter and then slept for two full night straight without doing ANY work -.-.
Hear that? THAT's called IMBALANCE.
I'm such an ass -.- *facepalm*
I'm actually REALLY frustrated with myself and this lethargy I can't seem to overcome :/. Archi is not a course I can afford to slack off in,ESPECIALLY since this is my final term for the year.
God.
Only 3 more months and my first year in college will be over o.O. Has it really been that long? :/
The last few months are a blur. And it's really depressing cos I can't remember all these things that WANT to remember... The CRAZY-ASS things my friends and I do, the things we've talked about, the places we've gone, my 18th birthday celebrations with my friends, and my first one without my family :/. And like I said, I haven't been posting here, or writing in my journal, which i vowed I'd do :/. 'Cos there's just been no time at all.
It's a little scary too. My life:I feel like I'm supposed to be watching an hourglass but there are things that are just keeping me so busy that I can't seem to find time to keep my eye on it. And when I finally turn back to it, the final grains of sand are pouring into the bottom.
I feel lost...

Anyway, a LOT has changed since I last posted. Some of my friends and I are less friends that we were before and some of us have grown closer. New relationships have formed, and some old steady ones have frayed.
And what's frustrating is, I can't Do anything about it. I can't run around FORCING people to tell me what's going on in their lives, and why they're changing, right?
I want things to go back to the way they were before. Without the dark emotions and the cold war. Where everything about these people were all sunshine and daisies, if you get me...
And then there's me. I guess I've changed too. There are times when I just want to be left alone. I never did before, but I've started snapping at my friends, reacting to excessive noise, and being just plain 1mean for no reason. I feel my tolerance level has reduced :/.
Plus I've turned 18...so I don't really don't now what that means now. More freedom? More responsibility? I don't really FEEL any different.... o.O :/
Things are just changing. And I don't want them to.
This is a depressing post, I know. But I needed to get all this off my shoulders. Maybe I'll have some happy stuff to post next time.
Till then, Peace!
xoxo
Maya
Song on my mind: Everywhere- Michelle Branch (I can sorta play it on the guitar ^_^)

Christmas....is OVER???

Whoa.
It's really over o.O.
It went by like it was never here...
:/
Maya
Song on my mind: Oh Christmas Tree...o.O

Is my blog too Orange? o.O

Heya ^^...Gave my blog a makeover.

I mean, Autumn's long gone, and now, winter can be felt EVEN here in Vijayawada. It's actually getting cold and I'm getting to wear hoodies and scarves and stuff again :D :D. I never thought that I would, here atleast. It's just waaaaaayy too hot for that. I mean, it was 40 degrees outside earlier this month :O!!
40 FREAKING DEGREES. IN DECEMBER!
That's just plain wrong o.O.
Oh oh oh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I'm going home today ^^ :D !!!
Yeah, I know. I just get back to college (the new term started on 18th), and I'm off again in a week?? The hell?? o.O
But I want to be home for Christmas and New Year. It'll be so depressing spending New Year in hostel -.-. I mean, we've an 8:00PM curfew, for god's sake!!! Imagine counting down to 2012 in your room in hostel,instead of out on the street with everyone else...
It's frustrating just thinking about it >.<.
So I'm kinda happy to be going back to the Gulf :).
And plus, I'll get to see my parents and sister again ^^. And sleep in my own bed for a whole week. Meet up with old friends and classmates, attend sleepovers, go hang oyt at malls I've known since forever, eat home food again...
Aaah ^^. *at peace with the world*
Oh, and we're having a HUGE Christmas party :D. Like a whole lot of my batchmates and I. Which means a whole lot of ex-12th-graders from most of the schools back home. It's gonna be AWESOME :D \m/
The only regret I have is not being able to be with my new friends for Christmas and New Year this time. They're all organizing a trip to Pondicherry for the new year... And I really REALLY wanna go... But at the same time, I wanna go home too...
:/.
Ah well, I guess you can't get everything you want, huh? :/
Anyway, I just wanna wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :). I hope you guys have a great time ^^.
And to all my college friends....I freaking love you guys and I'll really miss you :(. See ya soon! xoxoxo

Peace
Maya
Song on my mind: Cry Cry - T-Ara. It's really DIFFERENT K-pop.... Really nice vocals too :). Oh and the music video is awesome :O.

New fave song \m/

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

\m/
Maya