Christmas....is OVER???

Whoa.
It's really over o.O.
It went by like it was never here...
:/
Maya
Song on my mind: Oh Christmas Tree...o.O

Is my blog too Orange? o.O

Heya ^^...Gave my blog a makeover.

I mean, Autumn's long gone, and now, winter can be felt EVEN here in Vijayawada. It's actually getting cold and I'm getting to wear hoodies and scarves and stuff again :D :D. I never thought that I would, here atleast. It's just waaaaaayy too hot for that. I mean, it was 40 degrees outside earlier this month :O!!
40 FREAKING DEGREES. IN DECEMBER!
That's just plain wrong o.O.
Oh oh oh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I'm going home today ^^ :D !!!
Yeah, I know. I just get back to college (the new term started on 18th), and I'm off again in a week?? The hell?? o.O
But I want to be home for Christmas and New Year. It'll be so depressing spending New Year in hostel -.-. I mean, we've an 8:00PM curfew, for god's sake!!! Imagine counting down to 2012 in your room in hostel,instead of out on the street with everyone else...
It's frustrating just thinking about it >.<.
So I'm kinda happy to be going back to the Gulf :).
And plus, I'll get to see my parents and sister again ^^. And sleep in my own bed for a whole week. Meet up with old friends and classmates, attend sleepovers, go hang oyt at malls I've known since forever, eat home food again...
Aaah ^^. *at peace with the world*
Oh, and we're having a HUGE Christmas party :D. Like a whole lot of my batchmates and I. Which means a whole lot of ex-12th-graders from most of the schools back home. It's gonna be AWESOME :D \m/
The only regret I have is not being able to be with my new friends for Christmas and New Year this time. They're all organizing a trip to Pondicherry for the new year... And I really REALLY wanna go... But at the same time, I wanna go home too...
:/.
Ah well, I guess you can't get everything you want, huh? :/
Anyway, I just wanna wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :). I hope you guys have a great time ^^.
And to all my college friends....I freaking love you guys and I'll really miss you :(. See ya soon! xoxoxo

Peace
Maya
Song on my mind: Cry Cry - T-Ara. It's really DIFFERENT K-pop.... Really nice vocals too :). Oh and the music video is awesome :O.

New fave song \m/

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

\m/
Maya

I'm late again...

Okay, I've been re-writing this entry over and over again, for a whole month now, because I was unable to come up with anything 'worth' writing about...

It's not the 11th of november anymore, it's the 16th of December -.-

It's not that nothing's happened. It's just that I've lost touch with writing (or typing or whatever... )... And I have nothing much to say anymore. Things are happening WAAAYY too fast for me to put them down. The last four months have been a blur...I barely remember what happened in between the first week of college and the last few days of the semester...

It's been CRAZY.

But now, the year's ending, and I'm making an EARLY New Year's Resolution *Clears throat*...

I, Maya, solemnly swear upon everything I hold sacred and holy, that I will KEEP MY BLOG UPDATED REGULARLY so that it will serve as a diary, an album, a holder of cherished memories and relics of forgotten, yet treasured moments....

(Amen?)

Anyhoo, I think this is the second time I'm making the SAME resolution -.-. I'm pathetic, REALLY. I mean, to have to make the same resolution TWICE? Not good... :/

It's almost Christmas though...and I'll be flying back to the gulf to spend time with my family :). REALLY looking forward to that. It's true that living on your own in hostel is pretty awesome in some ways....But there's nothing I miss more being with my family. It's almost freaky how much more I appreciate hot baths, home-cooked food and the washing machine now o.O

Also, I am now 1/10th an architect, having successfully completed a whole semester without suffering any sort of mental breakdown ^^. Nor did I get my stress-busting homicidal tendencies get the better of me. All my batchmates are alive and well :P And on the plus side, I've lost 9 kilos :D :D...in 4 months!! :D
Anyway, I'll continue this later.... I gotta go help my aunt with lunch ^^.

Merry Christmas to all!!

Peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Nemo-Nightwish... It's kinda Evanescence-ish :P

LONG TIME NO ANYTHING!

Okay.... I've been absent from my for SO long, I think it's become home to many many cyber spiders...o.O. I feel guilty, but it's been so crazy with college and stuff that I couldn't find time to post ANYTHING. I never knew architecture was such an exhausting course....:/

And by exhausting, I mean sleepless nights, barely time to eat, loads and loads and loads of work....The WHOLE shebang -.-.

Oh and happy day, I ACTUALLY GOT into a college....:P I know I was doing some MAJOR freaking out about that issue but all's cool now ^^. There was some MAJOR stress when I had to switch colleges TWICE (-.-) and stuff...but it's all worked out now and I'm working on settling down. :)

My friends here are awesome. There are awesome people EVERYWHERE I go....and it was really hard to keep shifting colleges. I miss the friends I made in delhi, and it kinda pisses me off that I can't find time to keep in touch with them or my friends from Kuwait :/.

It's hard to post about everything that has happened since college opened. There's been too much happening WAY too fast. I'm okay, still the same, I guess... Lost a bit of weight (woot!! :D) and tanned a hell lot. Am like three shades darker now, and mom's not happy about it.

Hostel was awesome fun in the beginning but these days it's so suffocating there :/. I'm seriously considering running away -.-. Like seriously. A few friends and I even discussed about getting a hotel room for one night. We could stay out the WHOLE night, no curfew, no rules :D...and lay the town to waste :P.

Right now, I'm concentrating on making up for the three weeks I'd missed here when i was in Delhi. It's freaking hard work. Oh oh oh AAAAAAAAAAAND I'm learning drums in college... :) It's awesome fun. Me and Chao, a third year senior bestie have decided we'll practice everyday during the lunch breaks... Till we're as awesome as that XD \m/.

The only other thing that I gotta worry about is the end-of-semester jury coming up. I'm shit scared and so freaking unprepared >.<.... And I can't even call home or whinge about it to my parents or my sister cos I have no sim card. Which means no calls, no texting...no ANYTHING. I am CUT OFF from the outside world. And MAN it sucks -.-...

Okay, CALLS, I can do without...but NO TEXTING? That's just cruel...:/...

Okay, Jaane! Class in an hour...Gotta to get ready.

Will TRY to post more regularly from now on ^^.

peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Boston-Augustana <3

Catching Up...

Yo.

Okay, so the college thing has been sorted out. Sort of...

I'm STILL not sure where I'm going though, but I guess I'll know in a few days. However, I DO know where I WANT to go: Mumbai. But let's see if my opinion is taken into consideration this time... -.-

But I'll scrap that topic. It gets boring to rant about something all the time. What happens happens, I guess...

So moving on, I found out there's this whole street FULL of shops, just a 10 minute walk or so from my place. So we sent the WHOLE of yesterday there and I FINALLY bought a bag, something I really REALLY needed. I’m not very comfortable carrying my wallet in my hand, considering my attention span, and tendency to be unbelievably irresponsible. My dad and I also went nuts book-shopping, but then, we always do :P, much to my mom's irritation. "We don't NEED any more books !!!" she says.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

You're funny, Mama :P....

And then, I've discovered....MAGAZINES. Am I a little late ^^" ? They're cheaper than books, which I can't usually afford to splurge on. And magazines have SOOOO many pictures I can try and draw so yeah.... I bought a Femina (more for the pictures than the writing), and a photography magazine, since I've recently become pretty interested in the subject. I like them :). Magazines are nothing on books though.... :/

Oh and I also met up with a couple of friends the other day and man, was it good to see those faces again :). We hung out at the mall for a few hours. It was a….memorable *ahem* experience. Oh oh oh AND we had Baskin Robins ice-cream…^^

Can you say MMMMMMMMMMM…..? :P

And we went bowling (I sucked -.-) and shopping and just chatted about old times and went crazy. It was incredible fun :).

Now, there's nothing for me to do at home 'cos my sister has gone off to spend a few days in Chennai with our cousins but I couldn't go since I'll be setting off to college by the 4th or summat. So yeah, I won't be seeing her for almost SIX MONTHS....>.<

NOT cool, in my opinion. I don't think I'll find too many people who can put up with me like she does. But then, maybe I depend on her to much? Will have to think that out....

And it KEEPS raining here. Yesterday, there was this freak storm with thunder so loud it sounded like the building was collapsing and scary lightning and heavy HEAVY rain. For a moment I thought the place would flood... :S But all's cool now. Apart from the frequent showers, the weather here's pretty nice :).

That's all that has happened so far, so I'll post some more later, 'kay?

Peace

Maya

P.S: Did you like the new blog header? I drew it myself a few months ago. I know the perspectives wrong, but I'm scared to change it, in case the picture get's spoilt ^^".

Song on my mind: Love Song-Big Bang... More K-Pop :P

Yeah, so I might not go to college this year. Joy -.-.
I STILL haven't got in anywhere, but then the next AIEEE list is out tomorrow. Let's just all keep our fingers, toes and eyes crossed for me, okay? Please?
(Oh and please note that any accidents caused by people walking around with their eyes crossed are by NO account MY fault :) )
So yeah, I might take a year off and do Visual Communications Or a language course for a year. I'll have to go for coaching too, though, since I'll be trying for a better AIEEE rank next year. So all I can do now is pray, I guess. But the thing is, I'm not too keen to even GO to college this year. The only ones I'll get into are ones I didn't want to go to. The one college I REALLY wanted to go to was Manipal University, and I'm not going there so it's taken the fun out of GOING to college really. It just seems like another chore, you know? And the worst part is, giving up Manipal was not even my choice. I wasn't GIVEN a choice. And that's INCREDIBLY unfair, considering I'M the one going to college >.<.
Also, ALL my friends have got in so it makes me feel horribly alone when I read all their college-related blog posts or facebook statuses. And sometimes I get so frustrated, I just want to scream and punch things and break things. But you can't do that kinda thing here. It's too much of a scene. Keeping quiet can be a real pain sometimes.
It's just not fair...>.<
Maya
Song: Money-Pink Floyd