Christmas....is OVER???

Whoa.
It's really over o.O.
It went by like it was never here...
:/
Maya
Song on my mind: Oh Christmas Tree...o.O

Is my blog too Orange? o.O

Heya ^^...Gave my blog a makeover.

I mean, Autumn's long gone, and now, winter can be felt EVEN here in Vijayawada. It's actually getting cold and I'm getting to wear hoodies and scarves and stuff again :D :D. I never thought that I would, here atleast. It's just waaaaaayy too hot for that. I mean, it was 40 degrees outside earlier this month :O!!
40 FREAKING DEGREES. IN DECEMBER!
That's just plain wrong o.O.
Oh oh oh aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I'm going home today ^^ :D !!!
Yeah, I know. I just get back to college (the new term started on 18th), and I'm off again in a week?? The hell?? o.O
But I want to be home for Christmas and New Year. It'll be so depressing spending New Year in hostel -.-. I mean, we've an 8:00PM curfew, for god's sake!!! Imagine counting down to 2012 in your room in hostel,instead of out on the street with everyone else...
It's frustrating just thinking about it >.<.
So I'm kinda happy to be going back to the Gulf :).
And plus, I'll get to see my parents and sister again ^^. And sleep in my own bed for a whole week. Meet up with old friends and classmates, attend sleepovers, go hang oyt at malls I've known since forever, eat home food again...
Aaah ^^. *at peace with the world*
Oh, and we're having a HUGE Christmas party :D. Like a whole lot of my batchmates and I. Which means a whole lot of ex-12th-graders from most of the schools back home. It's gonna be AWESOME :D \m/
The only regret I have is not being able to be with my new friends for Christmas and New Year this time. They're all organizing a trip to Pondicherry for the new year... And I really REALLY wanna go... But at the same time, I wanna go home too...
:/.
Ah well, I guess you can't get everything you want, huh? :/
Anyway, I just wanna wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :). I hope you guys have a great time ^^.
And to all my college friends....I freaking love you guys and I'll really miss you :(. See ya soon! xoxoxo

Peace
Maya
Song on my mind: Cry Cry - T-Ara. It's really DIFFERENT K-pop.... Really nice vocals too :). Oh and the music video is awesome :O.

New fave song \m/

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

\m/
Maya

I'm late again...

Okay, I've been re-writing this entry over and over again, for a whole month now, because I was unable to come up with anything 'worth' writing about...

It's not the 11th of november anymore, it's the 16th of December -.-

It's not that nothing's happened. It's just that I've lost touch with writing (or typing or whatever... )... And I have nothing much to say anymore. Things are happening WAAAYY too fast for me to put them down. The last four months have been a blur...I barely remember what happened in between the first week of college and the last few days of the semester...

It's been CRAZY.

But now, the year's ending, and I'm making an EARLY New Year's Resolution *Clears throat*...

I, Maya, solemnly swear upon everything I hold sacred and holy, that I will KEEP MY BLOG UPDATED REGULARLY so that it will serve as a diary, an album, a holder of cherished memories and relics of forgotten, yet treasured moments....

(Amen?)

Anyhoo, I think this is the second time I'm making the SAME resolution -.-. I'm pathetic, REALLY. I mean, to have to make the same resolution TWICE? Not good... :/

It's almost Christmas though...and I'll be flying back to the gulf to spend time with my family :). REALLY looking forward to that. It's true that living on your own in hostel is pretty awesome in some ways....But there's nothing I miss more being with my family. It's almost freaky how much more I appreciate hot baths, home-cooked food and the washing machine now o.O

Also, I am now 1/10th an architect, having successfully completed a whole semester without suffering any sort of mental breakdown ^^. Nor did I get my stress-busting homicidal tendencies get the better of me. All my batchmates are alive and well :P And on the plus side, I've lost 9 kilos :D :D...in 4 months!! :D
Anyway, I'll continue this later.... I gotta go help my aunt with lunch ^^.

Merry Christmas to all!!

Peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Nemo-Nightwish... It's kinda Evanescence-ish :P

LONG TIME NO ANYTHING!

Okay.... I've been absent from my for SO long, I think it's become home to many many cyber spiders...o.O. I feel guilty, but it's been so crazy with college and stuff that I couldn't find time to post ANYTHING. I never knew architecture was such an exhausting course....:/

And by exhausting, I mean sleepless nights, barely time to eat, loads and loads and loads of work....The WHOLE shebang -.-.

Oh and happy day, I ACTUALLY GOT into a college....:P I know I was doing some MAJOR freaking out about that issue but all's cool now ^^. There was some MAJOR stress when I had to switch colleges TWICE (-.-) and stuff...but it's all worked out now and I'm working on settling down. :)

My friends here are awesome. There are awesome people EVERYWHERE I go....and it was really hard to keep shifting colleges. I miss the friends I made in delhi, and it kinda pisses me off that I can't find time to keep in touch with them or my friends from Kuwait :/.

It's hard to post about everything that has happened since college opened. There's been too much happening WAY too fast. I'm okay, still the same, I guess... Lost a bit of weight (woot!! :D) and tanned a hell lot. Am like three shades darker now, and mom's not happy about it.

Hostel was awesome fun in the beginning but these days it's so suffocating there :/. I'm seriously considering running away -.-. Like seriously. A few friends and I even discussed about getting a hotel room for one night. We could stay out the WHOLE night, no curfew, no rules :D...and lay the town to waste :P.

Right now, I'm concentrating on making up for the three weeks I'd missed here when i was in Delhi. It's freaking hard work. Oh oh oh AAAAAAAAAAAND I'm learning drums in college... :) It's awesome fun. Me and Chao, a third year senior bestie have decided we'll practice everyday during the lunch breaks... Till we're as awesome as that XD \m/.

The only other thing that I gotta worry about is the end-of-semester jury coming up. I'm shit scared and so freaking unprepared >.<.... And I can't even call home or whinge about it to my parents or my sister cos I have no sim card. Which means no calls, no texting...no ANYTHING. I am CUT OFF from the outside world. And MAN it sucks -.-...

Okay, CALLS, I can do without...but NO TEXTING? That's just cruel...:/...

Okay, Jaane! Class in an hour...Gotta to get ready.

Will TRY to post more regularly from now on ^^.

peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Boston-Augustana <3

Catching Up...

Yo.

Okay, so the college thing has been sorted out. Sort of...

I'm STILL not sure where I'm going though, but I guess I'll know in a few days. However, I DO know where I WANT to go: Mumbai. But let's see if my opinion is taken into consideration this time... -.-

But I'll scrap that topic. It gets boring to rant about something all the time. What happens happens, I guess...

So moving on, I found out there's this whole street FULL of shops, just a 10 minute walk or so from my place. So we sent the WHOLE of yesterday there and I FINALLY bought a bag, something I really REALLY needed. I’m not very comfortable carrying my wallet in my hand, considering my attention span, and tendency to be unbelievably irresponsible. My dad and I also went nuts book-shopping, but then, we always do :P, much to my mom's irritation. "We don't NEED any more books !!!" she says.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

You're funny, Mama :P....

And then, I've discovered....MAGAZINES. Am I a little late ^^" ? They're cheaper than books, which I can't usually afford to splurge on. And magazines have SOOOO many pictures I can try and draw so yeah.... I bought a Femina (more for the pictures than the writing), and a photography magazine, since I've recently become pretty interested in the subject. I like them :). Magazines are nothing on books though.... :/

Oh and I also met up with a couple of friends the other day and man, was it good to see those faces again :). We hung out at the mall for a few hours. It was a….memorable *ahem* experience. Oh oh oh AND we had Baskin Robins ice-cream…^^

Can you say MMMMMMMMMMM…..? :P

And we went bowling (I sucked -.-) and shopping and just chatted about old times and went crazy. It was incredible fun :).

Now, there's nothing for me to do at home 'cos my sister has gone off to spend a few days in Chennai with our cousins but I couldn't go since I'll be setting off to college by the 4th or summat. So yeah, I won't be seeing her for almost SIX MONTHS....>.<

NOT cool, in my opinion. I don't think I'll find too many people who can put up with me like she does. But then, maybe I depend on her to much? Will have to think that out....

And it KEEPS raining here. Yesterday, there was this freak storm with thunder so loud it sounded like the building was collapsing and scary lightning and heavy HEAVY rain. For a moment I thought the place would flood... :S But all's cool now. Apart from the frequent showers, the weather here's pretty nice :).

That's all that has happened so far, so I'll post some more later, 'kay?

Peace

Maya

P.S: Did you like the new blog header? I drew it myself a few months ago. I know the perspectives wrong, but I'm scared to change it, in case the picture get's spoilt ^^".

Song on my mind: Love Song-Big Bang... More K-Pop :P

Yeah, so I might not go to college this year. Joy -.-.
I STILL haven't got in anywhere, but then the next AIEEE list is out tomorrow. Let's just all keep our fingers, toes and eyes crossed for me, okay? Please?
(Oh and please note that any accidents caused by people walking around with their eyes crossed are by NO account MY fault :) )
So yeah, I might take a year off and do Visual Communications Or a language course for a year. I'll have to go for coaching too, though, since I'll be trying for a better AIEEE rank next year. So all I can do now is pray, I guess. But the thing is, I'm not too keen to even GO to college this year. The only ones I'll get into are ones I didn't want to go to. The one college I REALLY wanted to go to was Manipal University, and I'm not going there so it's taken the fun out of GOING to college really. It just seems like another chore, you know? And the worst part is, giving up Manipal was not even my choice. I wasn't GIVEN a choice. And that's INCREDIBLY unfair, considering I'M the one going to college >.<.
Also, ALL my friends have got in so it makes me feel horribly alone when I read all their college-related blog posts or facebook statuses. And sometimes I get so frustrated, I just want to scream and punch things and break things. But you can't do that kinda thing here. It's too much of a scene. Keeping quiet can be a real pain sometimes.
It's just not fair...>.<
Maya
Song: Money-Pink Floyd

Punk-Indian Me :P

I got my ears pierced !!!! ^_^ :D \m/

(FINALLY. :P)

My dad took me and my sister to the gold shop yesterday to get it done. He was pretty cool about the whole thing. I scrapped the whole three holes on one ear and two holes on the other idea. I've just got two holes on each ear now, and MAN, it looks hot :D!!! I got these totally cool silver studs which I am in LOVE with. And I also bought these adorable crocodile earrings. Check it out :D

And yeah, people say that it doesn't hurt and stuff, but it DOES. Not TOO much that it's unbearable...but sorta like a sharp stab that dies down to a uncomfortable throbbing. Apparently I gotta keep the stud on for around ten days till the hole heals. It was kinda hard to sleep last night 'cos my ear felt all sore and tender. It doesn't hurt anymore but it does if you touch the stud or anywhere around it. My sister got one too, making her the only girl in her class with TWO piercings in her ear. She chose a gold stud with a blue stone. Looks real cool, but at the same time, VERY Indian ^^.

The three of us had originally gone out shopping but ended up getting the holes at the gold shop near the mall. My mom had allowed both of us to get the holes a few days ago but the trip hadn't worked out then. And so we thought we'd go home and surprise her.

And man, was she surprised. And kinda pissed that we hadn't called her and asked her. She freaked out for five minutes, and then calmed down :P. She's so cute :P.

Thank you, Mama. And you too, Dad ^^. For being such cool parents :P.

Also, I've put henna on for the first time in maybe six years. Looks really good, even if I DO say so myself :P. Messed around on my sister's hands too. I gave her this cool glove like thingy. This one is the design on MY hand.

So with the henna and the ear-piercing, it's a mix of Punk and Indian. And I'm liking it ^^.

Oh and I put up the fashion sketches on the Art Blog. Check them out, ad temme what you think, 'kay?

Peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Truly Madly Deeply-Savage Garden :)

Okay, this post will be about NOTHING :). I like posts about nothing, you know? It's kinda interesting to see what people do or think about when they have a lot of free time on their hands. There's that saying about the idle mind being the devil's workshop and whatnot, but I don't buy that. And idle mind can come up with some VERY interesting (and entertaining) stuff sometimes ;).

So me and my sister (put the donkey last, heh heh :P) were looking up Naruto fan art, just for kicks, and I came across this.

I fell in love with this 'cos I'm all about the music ;). And ninjas (specifically Naruto shinobi :P).

It took me a while to figure out that the dude with the flute was Shikamaru....I mean, you don't really see him with his hair down much...

Okay...Moving on....

I REALLY have nothing much to say :/. I've been doing the whole movie marathon thing with two of my cousins and my sister. Old movies though. Like Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, Step Up 1, Step Up 2, Bambi( DON'T LAUGH -.-. I grew up with that movie so it's VERY special to me. Brings back a lot of memories :) and some others. I was a real Disney Baby growing up :).

And then I've been drawing. I gave fashion designing a try actually, 'cos EVERYONE who sees my sketches all go, "Are you doing Fashion Designing o.O?"

So I figured, I'd just give it a shot, I guess. Just for kicks. (That expression is stuck in my head. Bear with me :P.)

I'll upload some of the sketches later, 'kay?

Oh and speaking of sketches, I uploaded some more on the art blog. Check it out and temme what you think? :)

Peace

Maya
Song on my mind: My Immortal- Evanescence. LOVE it :)

College Trouble :/

Yo.

Okay, I am FREAKED. I (unlike almost ALL my friends) have STILL not got into a college yet. And the uncertainty is KILLING me >.< !!!

And you know what's the worst part? I keep feeling like what I've done so far to get in isn't good enough. And the thing is, I'm sure I have done my best. So I'm a little messed up in my head right now :/...

I'm just worried that I'll have to take a year off and study so that I'll get a better rank in my entrances next year. I do NOT want to take a year off. The thing is, I don't really MIND taking a year off, 'cos it'll mean more time to do a lot of things I've wanted to do but never really had the time for, you know? I'd (LIST TIME !!! ^^) :-

1. Take a language diploma course or something. Probably Japanese. It'll make watching anime SO much easier :P.

2. Or maybe an arts course? I could build up a portfolio, maybe do some more oil paintings. I've done three so far and it's a LOT of fun :D.

3. I wanna go on vacation >:D ... Somewhere warm ('cos I REALLY don't do cold. Or wet. Though I've always ALWAYS wanted to see snow. I mean, it looks SO pretty :). And fun.). I was thinking of pestering my dad till he took me to the US. He's been saying it for years now, but so far, NOTHING'S HAPPENED -.-.

4. Spend time with my sis >:). Plotting world domination, playing ninja, driving our parents up the wall with our oh-so-hilarious jokes and incredible wit :P, messing up the kitchen but simultaneously ending up with a decent batch of brownies (all of which would have disappeared by the next day. We make good brownies, if I DO say so myself ^^).

You know....What sisters usually do :P.

And I'll think up some more later.

But you know, when I think of all my friends in college, it makes me feel really horrible. "Cos not only are most of the doing a four-year engineering course, but all of them will be starting a year before me (if I don't get in anywhere, that is...). And then, there's me...who'll be doing a FIVE-year course and, on top of all that, starting a year later than all of them.

Which means 'll be graduating a whole two years after all my friends.

I know you're not generally supposed to look at it this way, but I can't help it :/.

So yeah, there are a bunch of pros and cons about taking a year off....So I'll have to think about it, and keep my fingers crossed for the best, I guess....

Keep yours crossed for me too, okay? Please? :)

Peace

Maya

P.S: Oh oh oh!!! I'm getting my ears pierced again \m/. I'm thinking of getting two extra holes in my left ear, and just one in my right. So in the end, I'll have three holes in my left ear and two in my right. And I can wear a bunch of rings in all of them. And get an eyepatch. And a red bandanna with white polka-dots. And a talking parrot. And a wooden leg. And a ship with the Jolly Roger. And a weird pirate-y accent. And a bottle of rum :P.

Song on my mind: Keelhaul-Alestorm ;)

ART BLOG!!!

I POSTED ON THE ART BLOG!!! GO CHECK IT OUT!!! And maybe drop me a line or two about what you think? ^^

(can't stay to type any more....my Mom wants me to get off the net :/)

Peace

Maya

Song on my mind: Lucy-Skillet. It's very sweet....and very sad. Makes me wanna smile and cry at the same time...

Fanfiction Overload.....KEEP IT COMING \m/ !!! :D

Okay....

I. Am. VERY. Bored.

SO I've been going nuts re-reading all these cool Naruto fanfics by all my favourite authors. Some of them REALLY give me a complex about my writing -.-. I mean, I KNOW there are good writers out there but is it REALLY necessary to traumatize me into giving up the idea of being an author THIS early on?

Does anyone know any funny authors who write good Naruto fanfiction? Who preferably have good grammar too? ^^"

Here are some of my favourites

1. http://www.fanfiction.net/u/17903/ :firefly... Drop-Dead-HILARIOUS fanfics :P

2. http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1707644/:WhyMustIWrite....Awesome Iruka-Kakashi NON-YAOI fanfics :). You don't find many of those around.

3. http://www.fanfiction.net/u/61803/:Swiss Army Knife.... More Iruka fanfics :). I love Iruka ^^... He's so cute, both outside and inside.

4. http://www.fanfiction.net/u/2088214/:gwenstacy....More Hilarious and Awesome fanfics, mainly centered around the adults.... It's a nice change :)

5. http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1840228/: Taryn Streambattle.... Another AWESOME author.

If you know any more good Naruto fanfic authors....Please drop me a line? Pretty please? :)

Peace

Maya

Oh yeah, and Song on my mind: Awake and Alive-Skillet :)

So.....it's been a while, I guess :P

I've read the first chapter of Last Hope maybe twelve ( or thirteen.....I kinda lost count after the eighth time :P) times. So I've been practicing how to draw the characters, and I wound up with this (Kinda a cross between Colleen and Ikuko :P).

I dunno about you guys, but I kinda like it :P....

Peace

Maya
Song on my mind: Don't Stop Can't Stop - 2PM :)

Okay, yesterday was just one of those days..... Know what I mean?

It felt like almost EVERYONE I knew was just....I dunno... GOADING me. And plus there was that lack of edible food (read:junk food) in the house which kinda worsened my already oh-so-pleasant temperament.

So the evening brought on a maelstrom of feelings, most of which were from the negative side of the emotional spectrum, so yeah....yesterday was not one of my best.... :/

But on the brighter side... My bro took me out today to this book fair and I bought my own Manga novel :). My very first one ever. And I'm going to snarl at anyone who comes within a two metre radius of it :P.

It's a cool story, called Last Hope. I've just got the first chapter, but the drawings are AWESOME! And all of a sudden I wanna be a manga artist :P. Ah well, I could always start practicing. Oh and I'm in LOVE with this cute puffball-cat-spider-thingy from Last Hope. It's called Hiccup and it is ADORABLE >.

Last Hope is

Peace ^^

Maya

Song on my mind: Fingers-Pink \m/

Art Blog

Okay, you know how I'd earlier blogged that I'd make a new blog? One where I'd publish my sketches (in the hopes that someone will see them and offer me a scholarship somewhere. -.- I swear, the things I dream up sometimes.... -.-)?

Well, I made one ^^....

But unfortunately, I haven't had time to put up any of my sketches yet.... Most of them are in one of my Facebook albums and I've done a few more once I came back to India (WAY too much free time, and NOTHING better to do :/). So when I'm allowed some online time, I'll put up some of the drawings :). They're just simple pencil sketches, nothing fancy....

But I STILL can't help feeling a teensy bit proud of them :P. Just a wee bit....

So yeah, for those of you who are interested....and anyone out there who may be able to offer me a free scholarship in an art school (*inner-Maya facepalms*).... please check it out at http://soulsketches-maya.blogspot.com :)

There are no drawings as yet....but I'll keep putting them up as they come. Most of them are done on notebook paper (done in school or tuition classes, when I figured I had better things to do than listen to the teacher drone on about things I didn't care about). Some are just rough sketches that I've done when I was bored. Which makes a LOT of rough sketches, seeing as I'm almost ALWAYS bored....-.-

Peace :)

Maya

Song on my mind: I My Me Mine-4 Minute (K-pop <3)

Hey, it's been a while, I guess.

I'm finally back in India, for good this time. And the weather here in Ernakulam is absolutely PERFECT ^_^!!! I mean, it's all sunny and warm but there's this AWESOME breeze that blows right through the house. I'm liking it :D

So anyway, what I thought is that now that schools AND entrances and stuff are over, I'd have a LOT of free time to write and draw and stuff, but that's not what's happening here >.<. I'm ALWAYS busy, but when I think back on it, I don't really remember what I've been doing. So yeah, I'm just gonna assume they were things of little interest to me, or I'd remember them right?

Today, my friend, Reshma, came over... Well, 'Friend' would be too tame a word to describe her... I've known her since 3rd grade and she's more like a sister to e. An older, WAY WAY WAY cooler, karate-learning, k-pop loving, anime-watching sister with an incredible voice :) And YES, I ADORE her ^^.

We spent the WHOLE day together. And it was FUN ^^. We swam (well, more like drifted...the pool in the apartment here is awesome, but not deep. And besides, she STILL can't swim :P), and that brought back a WHOLE lotta memories about us going swimming as third-graders. She was always scared that my dad would maybe push her into the deep end, so she always stuck around the ladder, ready to bolt if he came too close :P

That's how my dad taught me and a bunch of other people to swim..... He just grabbed us and shoved into the deep end :P....We doggy paddled to the other side and Voila! We'd learnt to swim....Sure it was terrifying, but what the heck :P.

So anyway, Reshma and I FIRST made friends in the third grade. I don't remember exactly how we became friends but I remember her sticking up for me when I was being bullied by this group or REALLY mean third-grade girls. And yes, there ARE third grade girl bullies.... -.-

We hung out more often after that.... A lot of memories of her involve playing 'Spies', and cycling and skating in Salwa Garden, walking the dogs at FIVE in the MORNING, teaching my little sister how to write her name (cos she was only four or something back then), dance classes (bharatanatyam), countless sleepovers....The list goes on :).

And then, after fourth grade, Reshma left Kuwait and we barely kept in touch. But wen I used to visit her in India during the summer holidays, it used to be JUST like old time :). But then we lost contact...

We started chatting again maybe a year or so ago, and now we're closer than before (if that's possible, that is :P)... and today we met after maybe....four, five years?

I'm happy. Deliriously happy. REALLY REALLY REALLY happy :)

You get the picture?

Peace ^^

Maya

P.s: The weather is so awesome I want to camp outside under the stars... but it's just when I plan things like this that unexpected things happen....like heavy showers at two in the morning. So maybe I'm better off staying indoors, huh?

Oh yeah, Song on my mind today: Cry Me A River-Justin Timberlake....The way he says, " I heard it from HIM' makes me laugh :P

Dissed by a bestie, for no reason whatsoever?

Yeah, THAT'S not cool....

Again, I'm pretty pissed.

Maya

Song on my mind: Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri (<3)

WHAT THE HELL?!

I am SO SO SO angry right now. And generally, it's not a good idea for me to write when I'm angry because of the kind of language I use.

But I will because I am upset and need to get this off my chest.
Okay so the whole college thing is WAY out of my control now. I was SO looking forward to going to Manipal University (Man U, Manchester United.... sorry, just a connection I made) where I'd be with my friends and stuff, 'cos it seems like half of Kuwait is going there. But yeah, JUST because I got a good rank in my AIEEE exam, my mom figured Manipal wasn't good enough and that there were far better colleges I could get into. So yeah, Manipal University down the drain :'/.

And I'm NOT happy about it.

But I guess it's like my mom said... College isn't about who you're with.... it's about what you learn and where you are. I don't like it but it seems to make sense >.<.

And it's not like I'm getting any sympathy here.... >.<. I have this hysterical glee from my mom's side because of my marks and AIR which I can't bear to spoil THAT much, because I know I'D be crazy happy if I were a mom and my kid did well in his/her college entrances... Also there's this weird reaction from some of my friends which is SERIOUSLY driving me up the wall. It's NOT MY FAULT I can't come, okay?! I WANTED to, more than they know it, but yeah, it's not like I can DO anything about it now

>.<.

I'm planning to stay off Facebook for a while, 'cos I really don't need the kind of treatment I'm getting. They can all gang up and be mean to someone ELSE while I'm away.

Maya.

P.S: Also, a REALLY REALLY REEEEEALLY BIG thanks to Namini and Keerthy, for sitting through my ranting sessions patiently and bravely without freaking out and running away. 'Cos I'm kinda scary when I rant... It would be wrong to call them my 'shoulders to cry on' 'cos I'm not much into the whole shoulder-crying thing, yeah?

Thank You, Namini

Thank you, Keerthy :).

Oh and I'm planning to start this whole song-on-my-mind thing, where I can tell you guys which song has been playing in my mind today.

Song on my mind today: Thank you by Dido....

And INCREDIBLE song. My new favourite (for the next few hours, atleast ;) )

This is Me right now -.-. I am completely EXHAUSTED >.<

Jaane

Maya

Okay, maaaaaaaaaaybe I've been taking it a little too hard with the guitar-playing 'cos now my fingers are so sore I can only type with one hand. On the plus side however... I got new guitar picks and they look AWESOME!!! \m/ XD. I was actually planning to buy another one, maybe black or something, and somehow poke a hole through it and wear it as a locket ^^.

I've also learnt to play a few songs.....well, not all that well, but I can sorta play them so it counts :P. Guitar isn't AS hard as I thought it would be.... :). The only thing I find REALLY hard is switching chords... THAT takes a little time to get the hang of ....

So anyway, I was thinking of starting a new blog. An Art blog, like all these other graphic design, illustration and animation blogs I find on Blogspot.

I know art blogs are started by real ARTISTS...and I'm not stupid enough to claim I'm one. I'm just a jobless girl who loves to draw more than anything else in the world. Gimme a pencil, some paper and play some good music, and I'll be the happiest person alive :).

So yeah, I'm thinking of starting one....but I'm not too sure. I mean...all illustrators and designers have to start SOMEWHERE right? Maybe someone will see my drawings, like them and offer me a scholarship in some design school?

-.- And while I'm dreaming, I'll just include a dog. This man will also get me a puppy. Because he FELT like getting me a puppy. And because I really Really REALLY want one :(.

Peace :/

Maya

Everyday I'm shufflin' :D

Okay okay okay, I'm so excited, I can't sit still :D.
I LEARNT HOW TO DO THE SHUFFLE ^^ X).
So that's one thing on the 30s list that I've accomplished, and how I feel right now is crazy happy and REALLY exhausted. I mean, shuffling REALLY takes it out of you, you know?

Oh and the video that inspired me to learn to shuffle? Party Rock Anthem- LMFAO ft. Lauren Bennet and Goon Rock X).

It's an INCREDIBLE MV. I LOVE the clothes and the way they all move. I still can't get the speed that's needed for the moves to look good, but I'mma keep workin' on it ;).

Till then, for those of you who are interested, CHECK THE VIDEO OUT!!!

I'll make it easy for y'all: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQ6zr6kCPj8

Keep shufflin'

Maya

This is a pic I drew....one of many, but I REALLY like this one for some reason. It's even my Facebook profile pic :)
Peace
Maya

Compliments to the Chef :D

I did a bit of cooking yesterday (:D). Now I'll be honest, I'm not exactly super chef extraodinaire. My 8th grade sister can cook better than me. I'll be standing there, staring off into space, burning the eggs I'm making and she'll run in when she smells something burning, whack me over the head, yell at me, and magically fix everything.

-.-

SO anyway, me and my mom made this coriander-mint chutney thing that tastes AWESOME on sandwiches with cucumber :D. And it came out pretty good :)

And I will be attempting more such cooking endeavours in the future ;).

Peace

Maya

Despicable me ^^

I've cleaned out the cupboards where I used to keep all m schoolbooks, and I landed up with a four foot high stack of old notebooks, exam papers and worksheet. And as tempted as I was to chuck the whole lot in a coupla trash bags and throw them all out, while cackling madly, my mom had some better plans for them >:).

Apparently, my old Math tuition teacher's daughter has just started her 11th grade...and she (more like her MOM, actually) would very much like to have my books so that she won't have to go to a tutor.

The thought of a dumping AAAAAAAALL the books I've used and tests I've done in the last two years on a poor unsuspecting 11th grader just filled me with this evil glee. So I got to the task hup-hup, cackling madly (where's the fun in sadistic pleasure if it's not accompanied by crazy evil laughter?) and in maybe twenty minutes, it was all packed and ready to be given away ^^.

And ANOTHER plus point is all the free space I now have in my room. I didn't realise how much space all my books took up before o.O.

Still crazy happy though :D

Peace

Maya

My first studio picture with the gang :)

I'm the one in the black halter with the white shell flowers. It's one of my favourite tops :).

I LOVE these pics ^^.

We look AWESOME X) !!!

The photographer HATED us, 'cos we were making so much noise....and NONE of us seemed to be able to sit still. I don't really blame him, though...We were probably REALLY frustrating to deal with :P.

Peace

Maya

I was reading this book called 'Almost Single' by Advaita Kala, and I came across this line that I loved: 'Friends' really are the family you choose.'

It's incredible that such a simple line could hold so much truth AND make me feel so happy :).

The rest of the book was not bad....another Romance chick-lit, not really my thing. But it was interesting in the aspect that it was about a woman in INDIA, and not about foreign people. For all I know, that could be ME in twelve years or so :P.

Peace

Maya

Okay, I KNOW I've blogged WAYYY too much these last two days or so, but I'm just so....RELIEVED, that I can't help it :P. It's like I.. NEED to write. But the only problem is that I have absolutely NOTHING to write about :P. So I will make a list (yes, ANOTHER one...-.-) of random thoughts I've had, and stuff I've done in the last few days or so:-
1. I FINALLY finished this e-book I was reading. Lion's Bride by Iris Johanssen. Kinda cool :). I liked it ^^. It's the first book I've read in a long LONG time :P. I've not read ANY books, except the odd random one for almost a WHOLE YEAR, and it feels weird 'cos books have ALWAYS been a part of my life. And I have this WHOLE folder of e-books, some 220 of them, out of which I have read maybe...... uh....30. Yeah, 30 -.-. I have a LOT of work to do...

I like only certain kind of books. I like funny ones that REALLY make me laugh...and also books which teach you a lot, like Dan Brown. I've also ALWAYS loved Fantasy books ^^". I guess I'm obsessed with Elves for some reason :P.

2. I went SWIMMING ^^. For the FIRST time in maybe 4 YEARS!!! And I LOVED IT^^! The pool in our building is FINALLY complete, aftre like, 3 YEARS of construction -.- :D.

3. I guess that now the whole stress of marks and whatnot are over, I will have a lot more free time to do things I like... I've started alot of things,and I guess I sorta got too enthusiastic about it 'cos now I can't keep track of it all ^^". I've started some (yes, SOME. As in, PLURAL....-.-) language courses on www.livemocha.com, a sign language course on www.lifeprint.com, and account on DeviantArt (www.deviantart.com), I FINALLY got a skype account so I can keep in touch with people when I leave... And more. I can't remember them, BECAUSE I have started wayyy too many things -.-. *facepalm*

4. I cut my hair in the bathroom again :P. Just the front, though. My bangs were getting way too long and fell almost till my chin so I thought I'd trim them a bit. Yeah, but I'm kinda new to the whole hair-cutting thing so....yeah....uh.... Now they're PRETTY short 'cos I KEPT trying to get them right ^^". I managed to get it right before I cut them ALL off (thankfully)... -.- *facepalm*. I've cut them in this diagonal razor kinda cut, like these cute emo bangs. I like emo peoples' hair... It ALWAYS look so cute :P.

5. I cleaned out my clothes cupboard.... *shudder* Yeah. NOT something I want to do again -.-. I found some clothes that I'd never even SEEN before which had to be atleast four years old -.-. The task took a WHOLE morning. A morning which I'd rather have spent doing MUCH more fun stuff >.<.

Note to self: Keep cupboard clean from now on.

6. I STILL haven't gotten to hang out with all my friends yet :/. SO I will make them take me out.... 'cos I've been stuck at home for almost TWO MONTHS now, and I need a break. REALLY.

7. I started writing in my jorunal again. It made me realise how much I missed writing in it. I guess, after I started blogging, I've been neglecting it a bit, so I figured, if I can manage AAALL these things I've started online, I can ALSO keep a journal alongside.

Anyhoo, I gotta go now. Chores calleth (-.-)...

Peace

Maya

*faints with relief*

The results are out.....

And you know what? I didn't do too bad :).

The world has suddenly become a nicer place :D. I was FLIPPIN' OUT the WHOLE of last night. Woke up at three in the morning, because I'd pushed my blanket off and my dad had the house at FREAKING minus eight degrees Celsius...-.-. And the FIRST thing I thought when I woke was "Are my results out?" accompanied by *eyes darting around wildly, frantic panicky breathing*.

Then I realised it was three in the morning, and that the results would not be out for another four hours or so -.-. So I lay there TRYING to fall asleep, but the whole results thing just freaked me out WAYYY too much. So here I sit, happy and sleep-deprived, with MUCH better marks than I had expected :).
And the four hours from three AM to seven AM? Yeah, WORST four hours of my life -.-.
So anyway, I feel a lot lighter now :).
I think I will go and do a couple of pirouettes, to try and get rid of this crazy happy feeling. Not that I don't like it, but it's making me giddy :P. I won't be able to think straight the WHOLE of today :P.
I'm also falling asleep on my feet. Gotta go catch some Zs.Peace
Maya

Ragnarok... Let me make it through alive. Please, please, please....*praying, eyes tightly shut*

I am a dead woman.
No, I'm serious. Well, maybe not dead YET...but I will be in a few hours :/.
My results are coming out. Tomorrow. And I will know exactly HOW badly I've done in my finals.
But it's no big deal. I mean, these were just THE MOST IMPORTANT EXAMS of my LIFE...-.-. And it doesn't matter if I don't do well in them.... All that's gonna happen is that my WHOLE FUTURE will be ruined....
Yeah, no pressure...-.-
This is INSANE!!! I'm soo SCARED!!! This whole situation sucks :/... I FAIL (I HATE that word....It freaks me out) to understand WHY CBSE has to do this to us students. We should just be told if we've passed or failed ( >.< There's that word again). No need for any marks and percentage nonsense. It would make it SO much easier on the condemned student populace that way. The pressure is UNBELIEVABLE.... I hate result release days >.<. Among the top 3 on the worst-days-of-my-life list -.-.

Peace, Pray for me, y'all! :S
Maya

*facepalm*

I have GOT to learn to be more responsible. And less absent-minded. -.-
GOD, I am such a ....BUBBLEHEAD-.-.
I could kick myself, really. I keep LOSING things, and it's so frustrating, ESPECIALLY 'cos i know it's MY fault.... :/. I almost lost my passport.
Yeah.....my PASSPORT!
I. IS. STUPID.-.-
Maya

Home again :)

Aaand I'm back home in Kerala. And happy to be here, might I add :).
It took a whole 12 hours by train and car (inclusive of a few visits we had to pay along the way) to get home. Stuck with a hyperactive, INCREDIBLY talkative 14-year old and a sympathetic, yet unhelpful 17-year old for TWELVE FREAKING HOURS. Yeeeeah... NOT something I want to experience again -.-.
14 decided he had to fill EVERY silent moment with talk, to ward off his boredom. It didn't matter if what he said made sense or not, he'd just say whatever he wanted to anyway -.-. 17 sat quietly, listening to him, occasionally asking him to shut up. Then there were times where they'd put their heads together, whisper a pervy joke and both of them would crack up. I suffered dirty looks from people on the train for ALL eight hours of the journey -.-.

Also, I brought my new guitar here. It felt cool carrying it in its case slung over my shoulders like a backpack :). A big, HEAVY, weirdly-shaped, fragile backpack. Only drawback was AAAAAAAAALL the people in the station giving me weird looks -.-. I had the desperate urge to yell,"FOR GOD'S SAKE,PEOPLE...IT'S JUST A GUITAR!!! WHAT THE HELL ARE ALL OF Y'ALL LOOKING AT?!?!" (or maybe... "NOBODY MOVE,I HAVE A BOMB!!!" :P. It was just this CRAZY urge. It took a LOT of willpower to ignore it :D)

*sigh* Buuut, I didn't. I just wanted a nice, quiet trip with no problems.

And now, I'm back home. And it feels AWESOME to be here. This place, in MY opinion is a quazidillion times better than Chennai, though my brothers think otherwise. I mean, even the AIR here smells different. In Chennai, it was so humid, we could barely smell anything. Here you can smell so many things. It smells like India....and I LOVE it :). I haven't been to this place in two whole years! It feels awesome to see my grammie and grandpa again :).

This place has changed a bit, but not much. The house has had a new paint job, so AAAALL those cricket ball marks on the walls are gone, and with them, a bunch of memories of playing cricket here with my gang of cousins. I feel kinda sad, seeing those clean walls. The house looked better before. ALL those marks had given it personality and this 'lived-in' look... :/.

Oh well, I'm here for around three days more till I go back to Kuwait. There's always time to mess it up a bit :P.

Seeing everything again makes me feel so happy, but at the same time, a little sad. This house holds SO many memories. I went upstairs to where I used to sleep before. I touched my old desk again, and remembered ALL the holiday homework I was forced to do, sitting there. My brothers and I played a short game of cricket (and started the process of memorifying the wall again :P). It felt amazing to stand on the same warm concrete of out courtyard again, and to see the familiar cracks i used to trace with my toes as a child. It felt amazing to sit on the red front steps with my brothers and drink our evening tea, like we'd done countless times before. It felt amazing to see the trees here. Everything here is so...GREEN! It's not like modern Chennai, with all its buildings and lights. It's more in the country... It felt great to go up to the roof again, and just sit up there in the evening breeze and look at Mt.Dhoni of the Western Ghats. I've walked up and down the road in front of the house barefoot, as I've done MANY times before to retrieve wildly-hit cricket balls from other houses or the gutter( yes, the gutter-.-). It felt awesome, 'cos every prick of pain in my feet brought back memories. I went and petted Bruno, the daschund next door, 'cos he's a darling, and I love his eyes. I've tasted my first mangoes and jackfruit in a long time, after I got here, and no other taste can compare to this: the taste of 17 years' worth of memories. I slid down the short wooden staircase banister, with all it's swirls and woody patterns again (when nobody was around) like I'd done MANY times before, just to remember how it felt. I found AAAAAALL my old storybooks, which I've read and re-read every summer I'd spent here, and there are a LOT of them :P. I found Tebby, the teddy bear I used to sleep with when I was maybe 6...and I have NO idea what he's doing here, but I gave him a hug, and promised him that I would sleep with him tonight. You know, for old times' sake :). I've gone into EVERY room in the house and blown a kiss into every one. Because I've missed this place. ALOT. And I'm upset I'm only going to be here for 4 days or so :/.

The nostalgia is so heavy, I can almost taste it. And it tastes like the guavas we grow in the backyard.

Peace

Maya

I miss School (as crazy as it may sound to some people)

By the way, for those of you who don't know, my REAL name is Meghna. Maya is just an alias. One I like ^^. And I've decided, once I'm back in Kuwait, I will find some day when I'm free in the morning. I will wake up at 6, put on my school uniform, like I've done for the last one year, and I will go to school. I will walk into class and sit down, like I have done for the last one year, acting like everything is normal. When asked what the hell I'm doing back there, I will act surprised and confused. The following conversation will take place.
Susan Ma'am: Meghna! What are YOU doing here?!
Me: Huh? Who is this Meghna you speak of? I know no Meghna... I is new foreign exchange student. My name Makenna Zubole. Nice to meet Madam...
Susan Ma'am:.........-.-. Meghna....

Me: Why you keep calling me Meghna Meghna? My name MAKENNA. MA. KEN. NA.

Then Susan Ma'am will stomp off to call security (or whoever teachers call when they want to throw someone outta class :P), and I will grin and wave goodbye to my 11th-grade friends, and hightail it outt there before she comes back.

Just reminding y'all I'm alive, people.
XD
Peace :*
Maya

Music ^_^

I BOUGHT A GUITAR!!! *excited shriek*
I WILL BE A MUSICIAN ^_^....
Okay, maybe that's getting a little too ahead of myself (:P), but I'm just so...EXCITED ^_^. I always wanted to play the guitar. I can play a little piano, and I messed around with the drums for a few months... so I know a little bit of both. But I will take the guitar to college with me and learn to play it awesomely...:D
There's this HUUUUUUUUUUGE list of songs I've always wished I could play.
But I guess I have to first work on getting the chords right and everything.... But I'm not complaining. I like to learn :).
So anyway, my new guitar is a Havana Acoustic. A HUGE one, that I can barely hold on my lap. I can already lay notes on it, but I have to lay it flat and play it like a piano :P.
So anyway, I'm going to go and practice now! The first song I want to learn is Lips of an Angel by Hinder, 'cos it's the most amazing song EVER !!!
Peace!
Maya

Life

I've been having a lot of serious conversations with some of my friends lately. Mentally, we're all adults now (though you'd NEVER guess that if you actually met us :P)...and it's a little scary to admit. For me atleast. It's hard to believe that we're all going our own ways now. We have our own legacies to carve into rock, like our ancestors of old did. We are waiting with our chisels held in inexperienced hands, waiting to be given the go-ahead before we approach our rock walls.
Yeah, and if you hadn't guessed already, I've been reading up on cavemen...-.-. Why? Just because...
College starts soon, and I may never see most of my friends again. It makes me feel a little lonely, and a little scared. I'm kinda sad that I never fully appreciated the time I had with my friends or family. The classes I spent doodling in my notebooks, keeping to myself, the times I locked myself in my room, not talking to anyone, lost in my own little world... I wish I could rewind all those times and change it.... I would mess around with my friends instead, and go to the living room, plonk myself onto the sofa beside my parents, and we would just talk and talk...
But I guess that's life.... It passes you by, and you don't even realise it...
It makes me feel kinda sad... Life's WAYYY too short for my liking :/
Peace
Maya

Randomosity

Totally Random thought-carp that have been swimming around in my Japanese brainpond. The ones that I managed to catch, that is...

1. I want to go surfing. I don't know why, but I just do. I've always LOVED the ocean. I think it's because it's so.....blue. Blue is my absolute favourite colour. Well, teal to be exact, and that's the colour of the ocean most of the time. I've ALWAYS sorta....gravitated towards blue things. The ocean, and the sky , and blue stationary being a few of them.

2. Surprisingly, I'm also attracted to the colour, Pink. Which is weird, 'cos I've never been a pink person. But there's just something about certain shades like Magenta, and Skittle pink... They're so bright and....um...Yummy-looking (^^"). I bought skittle-pink nailpolish once. Yeeeah, that helped ALOT with my whole nail-biting problem -.-. I should have maybe thought it out a little more before choosing THAT particular colour...
But at the same time, there are also shades of pink that I find garish and repulsive, like Fuchsia, for example.

3. I just realised.....I'm making lists again-.-.

4. I'm scared of going to college. I don't know how it will turn out. The reason why I want to go to Manipal so much is because, atleast there I will have a few familiar faces I can look forward to seeing. The whole idea of being alone in an unknown place kinda.....well, it terrifies me, to be honest. But if I have a friend or two with me, I'll be okay, no matter where I am, or what the situation may be.

5. I'm upset about my eyesight, and the fact that I'm almost BLIND without my glasses on. I mean, my power is -8, for cryin' out loud!!! I really should have listened when I was (repeatedly) told to not read in bad light, or moving vehicles, to not spend so much time in front of the computer, and to not watch so much TV. I. Am. An. IDIOT. *banging head on wall*
I even wanted to be a pilot, when i was younger, but I was put off when a friend told me that I'd never make one, because of my HORRIBLE eyesight, or whatever's left of it....-.-

6. I hate carrots (which happen to be good for eyes, by the way -.-). And beetroot. And spinach. Popeye's taste buds had probably all rotted away from all the pickles and eggs he'd eaten during his time at sea, which is why spinach was such a great thing for him. he probably didn't taste it at all. Take it from me, kids...Don't listen to that fraud...He's a bigger idiot than I am, and THAT'S saying something....>.<.

7. I drew my first portrait a few days ago...and it turned out pretty sweet, even if I do say so myself....B)

8. Boys' clothes are awesome to wear. I lived in my brother's spare clothes for a couple of days, when we had to unexpectedly stay the night in their apartment. And I was kinda hoping we could stay there longer JUST 'cos it gave me an excuse to wear his clothes. He's got some REALLY cool stuff. I go for comfort over looks, anyday. I could LIVE in basketball shorts and a loose T-shirt, or maybe jeans and a loose T-shirt, but I doubt my mom would let me...-.-. She's already got an issue with my wardrobe being 70% black, and the other 30% mainly dark blue, red and purple.... But black clothes are CUTE! And no, Amma, I am NOT goth...-.-

Yeah, I have nothing else to say. just felt like writing (again), so I decided to put some random stuff down. I LOVE writing ^^. Nothing makes me happier. Except maybe...drawing, and hanging out with my sis, and my friends,listening to music on my iPod... I'm feeling strangely happy. I think it's 'cos my iPod's not dead anymore. I will now leave to listen to some Pink. Best vocal artist EVER.
Peace
Maya

Come Home

I have been missing my friends SO much these last few days. They're all together in Kuwait (well, maybe not ALL of them, but atleast the ones that are there are all together right?), and going out together and having fun. I CANNOT look at photos of any of them together without being CONSUMED by insane jealousy. Yeah, like I needed ANOTHER issue to worry about...-.-. But it's just...not fair that I'm stuck here in Chennai with no one to hang out with at all :(...

Yeah, I text (ALOT -.-), and facebook, and call....but it's just not the same as BEING there...:/.
So I was listening to this song by One Republic, one of my favouritest bands EVER ^^. Come Home. And I can just RELATE to the lyrics so much, you know? It goes...
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home ....
I LOVE this song. It is SIMPLY amazing. And I wish someone were singing it to me, because I'm just so tired of being alone....:/
Peace
Maya

Fruitcake? Me? Yeeeah, maybe...-.-

If I were locked in an empty room, all I need to prevent myself from spiraling into insanity is a notebook and a pencil.
AAAND a sharpener and an eraser if we're going to be all practical about it and look at all the tiny little details. Which, I've noticed, I tend to do a LOT. I've been called a 'Bloody Perfectionist' by my best friend, and a 'Neat-freak' by my sister more number of times than I can count.
Things I find myself unconsciously doing:-
1. Setting things straight
2. Aligning things. Mats, furniture, books....everything are all perfectly aligned along the floor tile lines etc.
3. Talking/Humming to myself. The humming is okay, relatively normal...but the talking? Yeeeah...not so much.
4. Doodling eyes. EVERYWHERE. Almost all my notebooks are filled with eyes....
5. Walking into a room, and then wondering what the hell I'd come there for.
6. Going up to the roof and watching the clouds.
7. Making lists...-.-
I sound like a mental patient. I wonder if I have Alzheimer's.... Is it possible for it to occur in 17 year olds? Namini thinks I may also have OCD...-.-
And don't even get me started on my attention span, which could be compared to a sparrow's -.-. I'd started this entry, wanting to write about how I LOVE writing, and went on to discuss my mental issues....
Geez, I'm hopeless....*facepalm*
So anyway, let's change the topic. I love Clouds <3 <3 <3... Random, I know, but I DO....
I love watching them, and my name, (not Maya, my REAL name) even means 'Daughter of the Clouds' as I found out a few years ago. They're cool, being able to float along with the breeze and the way they make the sky SO much more interesting to look at. And they bring RAIN <3 <3 <3.... I LOVE.......^^
I have written NOTHING of interest in this entry but I was bored and I felt like writing. RANDOM thoughts are swimming around in my head. I try to catch them but they slip away too fast. Like orange and white carp in a Japanese pond. I have a splitting headache and I didn't get much sleep last night or the previous night. These REALLY freaky nightmares have been disturbing me for a while, and when I wake up, I'm scared and all I remember is a lot of loud noises and flashing lights. It sounds fake and dramatic, I know...but that's how it is. This just emphasises my theory about me being a mental patient -.- . Maybe I should see a doctor....
So anyway, I'm going to go and catch up on the sleep I missed out on last night. My head's KILLING me....-.-
Jaane!
Maya

Things to do before we turn 30 :D

Okay, a few days after the boards got over, Namini came over to my place for this sleepover. We had AWESOME fun, stayed up the WHOLE night (against my parents' wishes, of course ;) ) doing the regular sleepover stuff like watching movies(accompanied by our own dialogues and commentary ;)...the MOST fun part of the whole movie-watching thing), eating chocolate, talking, taking photos, facebooking, shopping etc.
So anyway, by 3 in the morning, we'd already finished almost all there was to do, and had talked about almost everything under the sun. We'd even picked up this cool (read:weird :P) arabic accent and some arabic phrases from Oded Fehr who plays Ardeth Bay (who is INCREDIBLY cute,btw :D), a member of the Medjai, in The Mummy. It's an ancient film but I hadn't seen it before so we decided to watch it.
So we decided to make a list. Both of us are 'Make-Lists' kinda people. This is what we came up with. It's a completey RETARDED list, but every time I read it, I laugh till I cry. I miss you, NJ... And we WILL do these things ;). No matter HOW crazy they might be >:).
Things to do before we turn 30 :-
1. Steal a car.
2. Go on a few road trips (atleast one Indian road trip MANDATORY. 'Cos India ROCKS :D!)
3. Streak our hair.
4. Flirt shamelessly with a cute waiter/salesman (that was totally random, but it sounds fun :D)
5. Go to Egypt together (again) and do EVERYTHING we did last time, including going on the three day cruise on the Nile Admiral, stay at Basma Hotel and buy LOADS of stuff at Khan Al Khalili market, among others.
6. Take Salsa lessons
7. Get our own place (:D).
8. Go to a concert and FREAK out, inclusive of screaming and getting those cool glowy rod thingies.
9. Go camping beside a lake (again, random, but still...) up a mountain.
10. Join a riot :D.
11. Do volunteer work at an NGO.
12. Get thrown out of a movie theatre. It'll be a cliched, sappy romance flick and we'll be standing up in our seats, throwing popcorn at the screen and yelling things like, " YOU IDIOT! Don't walk away!!! She LOVES you, GODAMMIT!!!" XD
13. Learn to play an instrument PROPERLY. Not just in bits and pieces like we already do :P.
14. Walk on the beach at night with someone we love.
15. Get two lovebirds together.
16. Yell profanities at my boss after I get fired/before quitting a sucky job. You know, for dramatic effect..... :D.
17. Get a tattoo ;)
18. See Paris. In all it's beautiful nighttime splendour.
19. Hijack a gondola in Venice ;). We'll shove the boatman off, close to the edge of the canal (just in case he can't swim or something), and make off with his gondola. Of course we'd have to return it later, but we'd first wander around with it. (Note to self: Learn how to steer a gondola :P)
20. Learn to speak a new language PROPERLY.
21. Go on a long expensive cruise.
22. Visit and donate stuff to an orphanage.
23. Go to a casino and make faces at the bouncers :P.
24. Set off a fire alarm, just for fun.
25. Learn to do the shuffle, and get clothes like the people in the Party Rock Anthem music video by LMFAO. My ABSOLUTE FAVE MV (for the moment, atleast ;) ).
There WERE more, but I've just posted the ones I could remember. I left the real list back home in Kuwait :(. It's nice to remember all the nutty times ^^. I miss you, NJ!!! Love ya, girl!
This is a poster we made. Will keep it for EVER and EVER :).
Peace
Maya

Me?!?! EMO?!?!
I think NOT....-.-
I have been called emo around 5 times in the last four days. And it's worrying me.
As far as I know, I am NOT emo. I like how emo people dress, and they have cute hair and all, but they are just too......morbid inside. And the Emo Blobs are just too ADORABLE ^_^. I'm too.....goofy (-.-) to be called Emo, and my friends should know that. I'm all about the sunshine and daisies, yo!!! :P
Seriously. I'm just too happy to be called emo.
Most of the times, atleast ^^.
There HAVE been some points in my like where I'd considered doing some really extreme things. Thinking back to those times,I feel kinda disturbed at how dark my thoughts used to be. Reading my old journals, I realise I was one CYNICAL 10th grader. Sure, went to school, laughed, and had an awesome time with my friends [who I miss like hell :( ]. But when I read the entries in my journal during those times, I'm kinda surprised at how often I was depressed.
Geez.....-.-
Well, anyhoo....As I said before, now I'm as happy as a bumblebee...Hear how they hum?
^_^ Peace
Maya

To my Girls,

Today, I spoke to a few of you for the first time in what seems like forever. Yes, I KNOW I was supposed to be doing online AIEEE math papers for my big, SCARY exam tomorrow, but SO many of you were online, that I couldn't help it. I just HAD to talk to you all. I was tagged in a class photo, 12 A, ICSK Senior, the 2011 12th grade batch. Do you people even KNOW how hard it is to look at that photo? Okay...maybe you do. You girls have been there longer, and you would probably miss it more.
I don't like to cry. It embarrasses me when I cry in front of others. So if EVER I want to look at that photo, I'd have to lock myself in the bathroom, and bawl my head off (quietly) in there, wait till my eyes weren't red anymore (a tip to make them white again quickly:fan them and think happy thoughts :P) and then only would I venture out again. If anyone asked, I'd say I had a stomach ache and attribute any remaining eye redness to pollen allergy (I'm not allergic to anything, as far as I know) or whatever believable excuse I can come up with at that moment.
I miss you all SO much, it's almost physically painful. Even though I've known you lot for only 6 months or so. No matter how much I immerse myself in what I like doing: Facebooking, Reading, Drawing..... it still doesn't make up for the time I'm missing out on with you. I'd rather be hanging out with you girls, planning stupid stuff like car thefts (:D), ways to overthrow the government etc. and annoying the crap out of you (you HAVE to admit, it's kinda fun :P), rather than being stuck here alone.
I have my brothers. They mean the world to me. But they're NOT you guys. I can't joke about my teachers or any classroom incidents that may have happened, 'cos you need to be there to understand it and see the humour in the situation. They would laugh,but it wouldn't be the same. It would be WAYYYY more fun if all of you were there.
So anyway, we SHOULD take my suggestion seriously (for ONCE -.-), and plan a BIG outing with ALL of us. And I don't mean a trip to the mall. Maybe a road trip? Or a cruise?
Yeah, yeah, I KNOW we don't have the money for that and all those OTHER mean little details would also have to be taken into consideration....but who says it has to be done immediately? We have YEARS ahead of us ^^. I'll start planning right away. Maybe we can ditch our parents and fly to Egypt or South Africa (:P). Though if y'all want, we can start small, with a trip to the mall :).
I'm not sure if I'll see any of you again unless this road-trip thing really happens, but I'll tell you all now: I WANT A REUNION. Guaranteed. So we'll make a deal...I'll plan the road-trip, and you 27 plan the reunion?
Love you guys SOOOO much!!!!! :*
Peace!
Maya

It's REALLY frustrating, when you really Really REALLY want to help someone, 'cos they're down or whatever the case may be, but you can't because of certain reasons. Either they won't freaking LISTEN (-.-) when you try to help, or you're too far away to be of any actual use or comfort. Online chatting is just NOT the same...
It's weird, I've been WAY pissed for tiny tiny reasons, the past week or so, and it's getting annoying. I don't even know WHY I'm always angry. And then in two seconds...I can't remember HAT I was angry about. Mood swings suck, BIG TIME-.-
Plus, I'm staying at my cousin's place for the time being. 16 people(including me) under one roof=MAJOR chaos-.-. Chaos that, though I (sometimes) contribute to it too, gets WAY annoying after a while.
You get TIRED of hearing people bicker constantly in the background. And my two youngest cousins, aged 9 and 11, have accumulated an impressive vocabulary of swear words, and can now cuss like truck drivers. Credit goes to my two OTHER cousin brothers aged 14 and 17-.-. They actually ENCOURAGE the cussing sometimes, and at other times (when I'm around, glaring at them), they act all mature and scold the little ones for swearing. I've decided to just carry around a cast iron frying pan with me and wave it threateningly when they decide the younger kids' language could get a little more colourful...
And then there are the lectures. A few every day. Oh how I ENJOY the lectures.......
NOT -.-.
So I often 'escape' to the upper terrace. It's not ALL that awesome as terraces go. You can't walk there without burning the soles of your feet (and I'm usually not the slipper wearing type), and the view is not that great. But it's a nice place to sit and think. You can sometimes see hawks flying overhead. The houses around are WAY weirdly coloured houses. There's one across the street that's FLUORESCENT orange....-.-
I'm not kidding. I mean, WHAT were those people THINKING?! -.-
And I've realised....ALL I'm doing these days is texting a friend of mine. ALL the time....
My aunt is getting MAJORLY pissed. I have a coupla important exams coming up. Depending on my performance in them, I could get into the college of my choice or do something I hate for the rest of my life, to put it in an adult's words. Frankly, to ME, it does not matter whether I get into Architecture or not. I have a few backup plans in mind, I'd always wanted to do languages, and work as a translator in the UN. Or maybe teach English in a foreign country. Or maybe do visual communications and work in a Magazine (^_^). I don't know.... but i DO know one thing, I WILL enjoy my life. I'll make SURE it turns out awesome. I promise that to myself.
Peace
Maya

You know, it rained yesterday afternoon. It was the first shower I experienced since I first came to chennai, and it. Was. AWSOME. I got TOTALLY drenched and loved every single second :)....... Though there WAS that part where I got yelled at 'cos I was walking around with sopping wet hair and clothes. The usual 'YOU'RE GOING TO COME DOWN WITH PNEUMONIA BECAUSE OF WHICH YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO WRITE YOUR EXAMS WELL!!!"-.-
Yeah, LIKE that would be such a bad thing....I mean, It's not like my HEALTH is on the line or anything right? But my marks? Yeah, THAT'S even MORE important.......-.-
Oh, and a friend told me that the weather here is going to get EVEN hotter......
Great. Just what we need, here in the land of Hot and Humid -.-...........
But till then I'm going to enjoy these storms....The whole of last night, I could hear the rain outside and the sky kept lighting up, so that for a second, it looked like day, and then the next second, it was pitch black again...:)
VERY cool....^_^
Peace
Maya

SQUIRREL!!! (LMAO!)

My master is a good and smart master, and he made me this collar so that i may SPEAK :D


I freakin' LOVE this dog!!!!!
I want him.....:( :( :(
I LOVE you, Doug! *a MILLION kisses*
Maya

NIGHTMARE!

GOD, I am just so mixed up right now...
What the HELL have I DONE to deserve this?
I need a drink....-.-
Maya
P.S: Thank GOD for understanding (sort of, I guess) friends who have a lot in common with you.....

When I talk....I'd like people to listen. Even if I say nothing of importance, it would make me feel like my opinion is valued. It's INCREDIBLY rude to COMPLETELY ignore a person, when they are trying to share their thoughts on a topic....
And yes, I AM still pissed-.-
So anyway, now that I've got THAT off my shoulders....I'm happy. For a while atleast. My exams are over and all, but there are MORE coming up. Big ones. Apparently bigger than our boards. And you know, during the boards, we heard 'Don't worry, It's only a month of exams and after that you're freeeeee......!' and other crap like that. But they were ALL lies. Lies, I tell you! Lies uttered in cold blood, deceiving us trusting gullible little children!!!!
...........
Um.......sorry about that. I thought this entry would benefit from a little drama *sheepish grin* ^^".....
So anyway, what I was trying to say was, if you're going to tell someone something, don't lie blatantly to their face. 'Cos it's mean-.-.....
Later!
Maya

I am INCREDIBLY pissed....AND have a splitting headache to top it all off. There's this thing EATING away at my heart. It sounds sappy, I know....but there's really no other way to describe it. It's nothing connected with romance, just a gnawing irritating pain that refuses to go away and is getting even worse as time passes. I want to scream and break things a lot and that disturbs me because I've never been the excessively violent type.......Okay, maybe I HAVE been, but not to a point where it has consumed me like this. There are times when I wish the sound around me would fade away and the world would slow down a little, because everything is always so noisy or speeding by. There's no time to really ENJOY an experience. Either the wold is spinning too fast or I'm the one that's slow. It could very well be the latter, I've always been a sorta turtle at most things. Of course, there ARE exceptions and all, but still...
So anyway, to change the subject, I'll talk about something else.
I woke up early (i.e my kind of early -.-) to go for math entrance coaching today. After class, I (finally) got to wander around on my own and explore the neighbourhood a bit. I figured it was about time I did, considering there's a very high possibility I might be studying in Chennai after all. And knowing my way around would be good so I wouldn't come across as a TOTAL idiot when I met new people.
Then again, it's ME so I probably still would.....-.-
Regardless of all that, it would be helpful to know my way around. And I traveled to class on my own the last 4 days or so, and I'm very proud of myself for byhearting the route from my cousin's house to class.
No sooner had I done that, when ..........we moved. To my OTHER cousin's house-.-
I kid you not.
Can you say 'FRUSTRATED'? Now I have to learn the route AAAAAAALL over again, not to mention that the new route is a hell lot more confusing and harder to learn than the old one was. And so after I wandered around a bit, I walked down to the temple wayyy down the street where my mom had asked to meet her. It's been AGES since I've been in a temple, actually, and I feel SO out of place there. I've never been VERY religious. There's been the one pilgrimage when I was 6, maybe, and the occasional praying (which escalates greatly during exam time :P), and the regular festivals and holy days. But nothing more. And when I go into temples, I often feel that EVERYONE there knows that I am not a devout worshiper like all of them are but a stupid girl who has probably wandered into the pretty building by mistake -.- .
And I don't like that. Maybe I don't pray all that often, but that does not make me a godless brat. And so, I went in, prayed a little, searched for my mom surreptitiously, got tired of all the stares, and walked out. I sat on the curb of the road, texted my mom, telling her that I was going to wander around a little. I walked down that road, and found this cool looking park nearby, which I recognized as the Annanagar park. It's got this huge tower in the middle which is closed to people, because apparently more than one person has tried commit suicide by jumping from the top.
Just THINKING about that gave me the creeps. I guess I've always been more than a little freaked at high places. I sat down at this bench and pulled out my art book 'cos I had nothing to do and it was the right atmosphere to do a little drawing... I wasn't trying to pose as those people from movies, who are seen drawing or writing in the park and look 'oh-so-cool'. I just like parks and restaurants because they're nice places to have a little time to yourself. And there was this ADORABLE little kid trying to get across this semicircular climbing frame, but kept stopping just before he reached the top, and asking his mom to get him down. He tried twice or thrice before giving up and running off to see-saw instead. Seeing him brought back memories of my own experiences with climbing frames. As a kid, I climbed the many we have in Kuwait parks, but I never made it to the top either. That little issue of acrophobia, you see...
And my mom showed up a few minutes later, just as I finished sketching the playground. So we set off back home. However, I think that I'll be visiting that park more often in the future, especially since it isn't too far from my class. It feels nice to be able to walk around on your own with no adults to bother you, and without having to depend on someone for money and transportation. It makes me feel strangely....independent. A feeling I'm (sadly) very unused to-.-
So anyway, we've got friends over at the house so I'm going to go now.
Peace
Maya